Being Mom

Why am I posting at 2 something in the morning? Because after being awake for a good 1/2 hr calming two screaming little girls (one still curled up next to me half asleep) it seemed like the thing to do.

I like to keep busy with projects; finding ways to feel like I've accomplished something. I take my kids places and do things. However, with the changes of moving and with my mood being a tad off this week, I had to stop and realize my kids needed me more right now. At 3 and 5 they are still waking up once a night crying and needing comfort since we moved even though they always say they love our new home. So I will be trying to devote a little more one-on-one time with them. Yesterday I had hot coco with Hannah since she got up b/f Karis. Then in the evening I had Karis help me clean up the garage and took her out on a "date". We got dressed up. She was allowed body spray and some lipstick to make it special. Her destination request was the Clocktower (a local family friendly pub) because she had seen some cool arcade games in the back. However when we got there we found ourselves in the middle of a scene straight from American Graffiti. The local car show was in town and Clocktower was PACKED.

 

We played a few arcade games and then chose to head across the busy street to Burgerville for Sundays and fries.

There we danced to Karis's favorite Disney songs played on the jukebox and watched the fancy cars roll by.

 

Karis took a pic of Hannah and I once we got home. We watched an episode of The original X men cartoon. (isn't Netflix great?) Then headed to bed.

After all the hugs, kisses, and time spent, I woke to inconsolable crying from first Karis, then Hannah. Being a mom is hard. No matter how much I try to love them, it may never satisfy. The best part about being a mommy today was seeing my children calm down while I prayed over them. Felling God's peace as we cried out to Him together. God has been teaching me how much I have yet to love Him. Tonight was one of the crisp clear glimpses of what it means to follow after Christ; to live in His love. I am sad that it took a wake up call at 2am to get me to pray with my girls. But the wake up call has now been documented online, so I cant forget it. It's my reminder to what really matters in my life. THIS: pointing my children to the only one who can give them peace, holding and loving them in their moment of fear and giving it to God together. THIS is what I'm here for. Being Mom is a challenge, being a lover and disciple of Christ gives it worth.