Not sure why, maybe it's the heat, or that I've been working hard on projects, but now that the projects are finished up, I have a strong desire to crawl into bed and never come out. I want to be creative and do more projects, but here in between them, I feel depressed. My butt wants to just become one with the couch. I am board and moody. It must just be the loneliness. Dale can't help that he has adults to hang out with at work and now with Justin who lives out in the garage. I don't want to hold him prisoner here with me. I am so happy for him... I just can't help but feel jealous of him. When sitting down to think and type on this, I realize maybe this is one of those times when I am to grow closer to God. When others are stripped away, I am left with Him. The question is: is God enough? He must be for me. No other way, because He is the only constant, sure thing. In the end, He must be my comfort, the lent ear, the calming wisdom needed for my day. He is not a pill to cure my lethargy, but a companion who can pull the burden with me. Just thinking on this lifts my attitude about today.
Lord, you are with me. You are my constant companion. Help me own this relationship. That I would not take you for granted, or ever complain about being "all by myself!" For you said: "behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age." Matt 28:20 and "I will never leave you nor forsake you." Heb. 13: 5
This picture leaves me with the old hymn ringing in my head:
"Turn you eyes upon Jesus, look full in his wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glorious grace."
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